Sometimes I hear stories of myself being a Casanova, me liking girls A B C D E F G etc etc..
I don't need to explain myself cos if you believe this bullshit its your fault not mine... I didnt tell u about girls acbcdefgh did I? You chose to listen to these empty fabrications...
If you're one of these airheads...
I dont need your forgiveness, I dont need your friendship.
Think what you like cos i dont care and I know my true friends will stay by my side
and but laugh at the rumors you're about to share.
Feel guilty for judging a friend. But this Christmas, if you were once my friend...
you know I actually do love you all =)
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Farmer
What do you wanna be when you grow up?
Well a long time ago...when I was in primary 1, I wanted to be a soldier...
but den what is a soldier without a battle? who do you protect your family and friends against? (the germs in the air? the mosquitoes in the camp?) All they do is collect their salary, and do surface acts that helps them get promoted faster...no guts no glory... (at least not in Singapore)
Keyboard warriors battling it out on papers and reports...nerds with muscles? What more?
What do you wanna be when you grow up?
Long ago...when I was in poly year 1, I wanted to be a manager on board a cruise...
Starting from Superstar Virgo, to Princess Cruises Alaska and one day Queen Elizabeth 2... Arent the seas so blue and beautiful...lonely but peaceful?
But perhaps it was too lonely... the soldier's life made me realise I actually missed home...
We used to sing while marching "I know, I know... you have to go...so hurry back home... cos I miss you so..."
In the times of shit...when home is so warm and welcoming... perhaps being on a cruise ship for several months in a go...was not for me...
What do you wanna be when you grow up?
I want to be a farmer on a ranch...a farmer??!?! you would say... anyone can be a farmer...What a useless dream today...
Well you are so wrong... Everyone might have the cognitive ability to learn how to farm and rear animals...but WHO CAN DO THAT TODAY?
What does society do to you when you do something, that is not encouraged by the government? something not even deviant...but just different?
People will ostracize you and thats the price you'd pay...
But yet a farmer so carefree, with lands with air so fresh, with sights more peaceful than the lonely sea...where life becomes a breeze.
But who I am to be... What I want to be... How am I to stand against, the many (society) in my way?
Well a long time ago...when I was in primary 1, I wanted to be a soldier...
but den what is a soldier without a battle? who do you protect your family and friends against? (the germs in the air? the mosquitoes in the camp?) All they do is collect their salary, and do surface acts that helps them get promoted faster...no guts no glory... (at least not in Singapore)
Keyboard warriors battling it out on papers and reports...nerds with muscles? What more?
What do you wanna be when you grow up?
Long ago...when I was in poly year 1, I wanted to be a manager on board a cruise...
Starting from Superstar Virgo, to Princess Cruises Alaska and one day Queen Elizabeth 2... Arent the seas so blue and beautiful...lonely but peaceful?
But perhaps it was too lonely... the soldier's life made me realise I actually missed home...
We used to sing while marching "I know, I know... you have to go...so hurry back home... cos I miss you so..."
In the times of shit...when home is so warm and welcoming... perhaps being on a cruise ship for several months in a go...was not for me...
What do you wanna be when you grow up?
I want to be a farmer on a ranch...a farmer??!?! you would say... anyone can be a farmer...What a useless dream today...
Well you are so wrong... Everyone might have the cognitive ability to learn how to farm and rear animals...but WHO CAN DO THAT TODAY?
What does society do to you when you do something, that is not encouraged by the government? something not even deviant...but just different?
People will ostracize you and thats the price you'd pay...
But yet a farmer so carefree, with lands with air so fresh, with sights more peaceful than the lonely sea...where life becomes a breeze.
But who I am to be... What I want to be... How am I to stand against, the many (society) in my way?
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
All I want for Christmas
I won't ask for much this Christmas
I don't even wish for snow
I'm just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeers click
'Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Eye Candy
I thought I saw an angel, thus from the dead I rise.
But when she turned and looked at me, she owned me with her eyes.
She taunted me with her smile….kept running through my mind.
As I fought to keep them off, a desire emerged within.
Desire I wanted to feed, and feelings I wanted to keep.
Beauty was so dangerous, but my heart refused to sit.
She felt so enchanted, was she fabricated?
Though it was all alluring…but were you really keen?
It is possible for you to not realize whats in your heart...
But it is also possible for you to realize it but not know what to do...
What the hell do I want?
Why does she recur in my mind, even though I think I have no special feelings for her apart from the fact shes a friend and pretty?
But when she turned and looked at me, she owned me with her eyes.
She taunted me with her smile….kept running through my mind.
As I fought to keep them off, a desire emerged within.
Desire I wanted to feed, and feelings I wanted to keep.
Beauty was so dangerous, but my heart refused to sit.
She felt so enchanted, was she fabricated?
Though it was all alluring…but were you really keen?
It is possible for you to not realize whats in your heart...
But it is also possible for you to realize it but not know what to do...
What the hell do I want?
Why does she recur in my mind, even though I think I have no special feelings for her apart from the fact shes a friend and pretty?
Monday, December 1, 2008
Exams
I hate Econs, its the greatest regret in my life.
Eerhhhh apart from the regret that I didn't visit my grandma regularly when she
was still around.
Anyway. School is bullshit.
1st time in my whole life I ever felt stressed and lost my inner peace.
Some time ago, I went back to temasek poly to study... everyone looked so happy
and free from worries... I felt I found my lost soul...
This ain't cool. Ima find it back.
Find Ashton back again.
Jaa.
Eerhhhh apart from the regret that I didn't visit my grandma regularly when she
was still around.
Anyway. School is bullshit.
1st time in my whole life I ever felt stressed and lost my inner peace.
Some time ago, I went back to temasek poly to study... everyone looked so happy
and free from worries... I felt I found my lost soul...
This ain't cool. Ima find it back.
Find Ashton back again.
Jaa.
Monday, November 24, 2008
Random
Dear friends,
I apologize for the laziness in updating my blog...but nothing interesting is happening. hahaha. ERhhhhhh for the sake of blogging, NM was tricky!!
MUD - Multi User DungeonS (Sherm says its bcos got S den its wrong) hahhahhahaha!
I'm damn lucky I chose dimension.. upon thinking of it for 10 mins and dropping at least 3 strands of my mega short hair... I thought the s was abit dubious... Hope I'm right!!!
Anyway QET was about premarital sex... In which the paper covertly INSINUATES that we should be AGAINST premarital sex although overtly, they wanted us to make a stand.. DAMN JIAN right? Anyway, being the open minded 20th century ah tiong... Whats wrong with PMS??? I couldnt bring myself to write against it?
Of consequences of diseases and AIDS applying to premarital sex... You mean married alr have sex wont get AIDS or diseases? Or consequences of pregnancy, theres contraception and abortion...of which abortion might be morally wrong but its a open debate on its morality and the topic of PMS is NOT ABOUT morality of abortion...so thats not a consequence eh?
Of which in the end I concluded by condemning premarital casual sex and O.N.S instead... C'mon...see even if your are married but you're unfaithful...the consequences can be as bad or worse right???????
But den again, that ultra conservative aunty in the tudung* who has very strict moral values...if she was to mark my paper, she would be biased and FAIL me cos i went outta the "INSINUATED" topic of being against premarital sex right??? But the question of "All/Most teens who engage in PMS will end up with severe consequences later in life, do you agree?" being the OVERT topic...(in which they have secretly desired covertly that you agree with that statement by giving us suggested points like consequences and ways to deter PMS) ... kk as i was saying... by answering the OVERT topic i did nothing wrong and deserve an A for my argument!
(*Disclaimer: I'm not racist and I wouldnt say that Chinese aunties are not conservative...incase you decide to try to sue me)
Kk the most scary thing now is... maybe the gahment is gonna put me in jail cos i made a remark saying the aunty in tudung has strict morale values.. (true what, come sue me, i fear nothing...and theres nothing offensive or racist about it cos its a FACT that some of those aunties wear headdresses and are very morally strict" Now where has our freedom of speech on the internet gone to?
Anyway...if i go missing, pls find me a lawyer...or please know that they have secretly imprisoned me using their ISD act that allows them to detain people indefinitely for political safety reasons. Let the world know why Im missing and perhaps they have no choice but to free me! Now CNM has made me skeptical that what we've written is being highly regulated by "them".
Ok enough crap. I shall end by encouraging all of you not to give up on your studies.
Cos I havent...even though I've lost count of the no. of times the thought of quitting school brushed passed my mind.
Jiayou!!! The happiest thing for me... is to see all of you succeed one day. All of you that I care about. =)
Love,
Ashton
I apologize for the laziness in updating my blog...but nothing interesting is happening. hahaha. ERhhhhhh for the sake of blogging, NM was tricky!!
MUD - Multi User DungeonS (Sherm says its bcos got S den its wrong) hahhahhahaha!
I'm damn lucky I chose dimension.. upon thinking of it for 10 mins and dropping at least 3 strands of my mega short hair... I thought the s was abit dubious... Hope I'm right!!!
Anyway QET was about premarital sex... In which the paper covertly INSINUATES that we should be AGAINST premarital sex although overtly, they wanted us to make a stand.. DAMN JIAN right? Anyway, being the open minded 20th century ah tiong... Whats wrong with PMS??? I couldnt bring myself to write against it?
Of consequences of diseases and AIDS applying to premarital sex... You mean married alr have sex wont get AIDS or diseases? Or consequences of pregnancy, theres contraception and abortion...of which abortion might be morally wrong but its a open debate on its morality and the topic of PMS is NOT ABOUT morality of abortion...so thats not a consequence eh?
Of which in the end I concluded by condemning premarital casual sex and O.N.S instead... C'mon...see even if your are married but you're unfaithful...the consequences can be as bad or worse right???????
But den again, that ultra conservative aunty in the tudung* who has very strict moral values...if she was to mark my paper, she would be biased and FAIL me cos i went outta the "INSINUATED" topic of being against premarital sex right??? But the question of "All/Most teens who engage in PMS will end up with severe consequences later in life, do you agree?" being the OVERT topic...(in which they have secretly desired covertly that you agree with that statement by giving us suggested points like consequences and ways to deter PMS) ... kk as i was saying... by answering the OVERT topic i did nothing wrong and deserve an A for my argument!
(*Disclaimer: I'm not racist and I wouldnt say that Chinese aunties are not conservative...incase you decide to try to sue me)
Kk the most scary thing now is... maybe the gahment is gonna put me in jail cos i made a remark saying the aunty in tudung has strict morale values.. (true what, come sue me, i fear nothing...and theres nothing offensive or racist about it cos its a FACT that some of those aunties wear headdresses and are very morally strict" Now where has our freedom of speech on the internet gone to?
Anyway...if i go missing, pls find me a lawyer...or please know that they have secretly imprisoned me using their ISD act that allows them to detain people indefinitely for political safety reasons. Let the world know why Im missing and perhaps they have no choice but to free me! Now CNM has made me skeptical that what we've written is being highly regulated by "them".
Ok enough crap. I shall end by encouraging all of you not to give up on your studies.
Cos I havent...even though I've lost count of the no. of times the thought of quitting school brushed passed my mind.
Jiayou!!! The happiest thing for me... is to see all of you succeed one day. All of you that I care about. =)
Love,
Ashton
Saturday, October 18, 2008
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