Exams

I hate Econs, its the greatest regret in my life.
Eerhhhh apart from the regret that I didn't visit my grandma regularly when she
was still around.
Anyway. School is bullshit.
1st time in my whole life I ever felt stressed and lost my inner peace.
Some time ago, I went back to temasek poly to study... everyone looked so happy
and free from worries... I felt I found my lost soul...
This ain't cool. Ima find it back.
Find Ashton back again.

Jaa.

Random

Dear friends,
I apologize for the laziness in updating my blog...but nothing interesting is happening. hahaha. ERhhhhhh for the sake of blogging, NM was tricky!!
MUD - Multi User DungeonS (Sherm says its bcos got S den its wrong) hahhahhahaha!
I'm damn lucky I chose dimension.. upon thinking of it for 10 mins and dropping at least 3 strands of my mega short hair... I thought the s was abit dubious... Hope I'm right!!!

Anyway QET was about premarital sex... In which the paper covertly INSINUATES that we should be AGAINST premarital sex although overtly, they wanted us to make a stand.. DAMN JIAN right? Anyway, being the open minded 20th century ah tiong... Whats wrong with PMS??? I couldnt bring myself to write against it?
Of consequences of diseases and AIDS applying to premarital sex... You mean married alr have sex wont get AIDS or diseases? Or consequences of pregnancy, theres contraception and abortion...of which abortion might be morally wrong but its a open debate on its morality and the topic of PMS is NOT ABOUT morality of abortion...so thats not a consequence eh?
Of which in the end I concluded by condemning premarital casual sex and O.N.S instead... C'mon...see even if your are married but you're unfaithful...the consequences can be as bad or worse right???????

But den again, that ultra conservative aunty in the tudung* who has very strict moral values...if she was to mark my paper, she would be biased and FAIL me cos i went outta the "INSINUATED" topic of being against premarital sex right??? But the question of "All/Most teens who engage in PMS will end up with severe consequences later in life, do you agree?" being the OVERT topic...(in which they have secretly desired covertly that you agree with that statement by giving us suggested points like consequences and ways to deter PMS) ... kk as i was saying... by answering the OVERT topic i did nothing wrong and deserve an A for my argument!

(*Disclaimer: I'm not racist and I wouldnt say that Chinese aunties are not conservative...incase you decide to try to sue me)

Kk the most scary thing now is... maybe the gahment is gonna put me in jail cos i made a remark saying the aunty in tudung has strict morale values.. (true what, come sue me, i fear nothing...and theres nothing offensive or racist about it cos its a FACT that some of those aunties wear headdresses and are very morally strict" Now where has our freedom of speech on the internet gone to?

Anyway...if i go missing, pls find me a lawyer...or please know that they have secretly imprisoned me using their ISD act that allows them to detain people indefinitely for political safety reasons. Let the world know why Im missing and perhaps they have no choice but to free me! Now CNM has made me skeptical that what we've written is being highly regulated by "them".

Ok enough crap. I shall end by encouraging all of you not to give up on your studies.
Cos I havent...even though I've lost count of the no. of times the thought of quitting school brushed passed my mind.
Jiayou!!! The happiest thing for me... is to see all of you succeed one day. All of you that I care about. =)

Love,
Ashton

CNM

CNM's a bitch!! I DEFEATED IT!!! HURRRR FINALLY I'M NOT STUPID. ROARRRRRRRRRR.
BRING IT ON.

Dear Grandma, Dear God...

Dear Grandma,

You've showed us the way you lived... how you've always cared about us more than you've cared about yourself...
You'd always send us to the station and made sure we were safe. Today, as I sat on the bus alone...perhaps you were sitting beside me too...
Despite the pain... you held on dearly... as we celebrated your birthday a few weeks ago...you smiled so gently...
And suddenly it turned for the worst... yet you waited for us all...
With your only strength left...the only thing you said was...thank you all...
You didn't want to see us cry...so when the nurse told us to leave temporarily...you left us discretely...
The way you lived... will be the way I learn...
One day perhaps...I'll be a good man...just like you.
Of course I love you.

Love,
Your Grandson

Dear God,

Have you been busy? I prayed never... For the results on my test. Nor for the love of the girl of my heart. Not to take my pain away... but for her to be painless everyday...
But as I see her... looking so frail... can't help but ask... Have you been busy lately?

Love,
Your Son

Econecons

I received econs results today.
29. I couldnt believe it . i was quite expecting at least 30.
I went home and checked. indeed i answered those questions wrongly.
I shall no be a loser and comment on whats over.
But what comes in the days ahead. I'll make these econ bitches pay me back double for the insult they dealt me today.
Ok!!! disappointment aside!!!
Myyyyy cutest friend has found her bliss! =D

Friday

Everything else didn't matter today. Not the 3 tests. Nor how crappy the jap test might have gone.
When I received a gift from the lil silly and sweet mouse... "For you...all the best for your test later..."(knowing i had 3 tests today), suddenly I found my inner peace that I was trying so hard to find.
Thanks minnie! you're my happy fruit! =)

To the others reading this. DONT THINK TOO MUCH. lol.

Take it off

Someone take off my mask... and award me best actor please.
Let my mask crumble. I cant hold it up anymore.
How can i still pretend to be happy.